At college, there's this stupid little 'educational app store'. It's fine, well it was. It wasn't doing anyone any harm other than being distracting with the memory pairs game, until it made itself a little advert. It said something along the lines of "you aren't special, you aren't creative, you aren't an author, you just have the educational app store".

Well fuck that, because guess what, you are special, we all have talents, we've all had experience. Experience is what matters in this world. Be kind and others will be kind to you. My life has been an interesting one, there are fragments of it (mainly in Spanish) deeply sunk into the lava of my musings on this blog, but what have I made of it?

I won't lie to you I still struggle everyday with the things that went on, but time IS a great healer. Anyone can cope and survive whatever they have to, the thing is, some days you get squashed like a million rocks are rolling at you and each one screams out all those little insecurities, the bruises shine brightest in the darkest places and you have to let someone help you. Perhaps it's like that everyday for a while, and people start to get tired of it, because yeah, you get it right? You're tired yourself. And it does get difficult when you stop letting people help, because they're going to get tired, and you pull the rocks off yourself, and the bruises don't fade how they would do.

But other days. Those are the ones worth doing it all for, because no matter what has happened to you, something still makes you laugh, someone still makes you smile, and more and more you start to build confidence, that you are better than what happened to you. It doesn't define you, at least not today. When people look at you and they can't see the bruises, and you don't care because it isn't who you are, then that's worthwhile. The days when the world is a better place and all you can possibly do is make it better because you have a story worth sharing, worth giving to others. Because, let's face it, you do.

Be that person who makes peoples days, help people get out from the rocks, because we're all worth it.

Dream again

So, in my dream I was in this giant medieval town, the last time I dreamt about it I was stealing a cart there and running out of the city gates, but this time, it was far more developed. The college was split up around the town, and I remember I was living there whilst my dad was visiting. We were in a restaurant that had seating all up the middle of a long street, and it was quite narrow. Anyway they had like a first class section, and we got kicked out. My dad not being used to medieval ways tried to argue but I dragged him off. I don't remember much else after that part.

Then later on, I was running to college because I was late for art. I got there, and I threw my university of Southampton water bottle at my teacher (who IRL teaches me Spanish so wtf) then, I ran away again, and my Spanish teacher (who also teaches me Spanish IRL but is a different teacher) told me I should grow up and it doesnt matter than mummy and daddy didn't love me. So I told her to not say that and ran outside of the city gates to where my art teacher lived to apologise, and I got there and I had to swim it, and I was swimming about like some crazy person, and my art teacher was like it's fine d/w bout it. Then we both went outside and this woman legged it past and we chased her, and then I was chosen to swim around and save her, as I did.

Which involved a lot of climbing, jumping and diving and this woman was all bleeding, but I saved her and was crowned hero or something :P

Yeah... then I moved on to another dream

Dream...

So me and my boyfriend were shopping for a sound system (coz irl my stepdad keeps banging on about getting one, which he did and the godfather sounded pretty awesome), and we were in this really really shit shop. There was like 1 member of staff and a couple of other people, and the carpet was green and it felt really empty and temporary. So anyway me and Matt were trying to test out this one specific set of speakers, but it wouldn't play any music for us to test, so we followed the lead and it went into a closed room. We entered, and there was a bed and a desk with a computer. Matt did computery stuff and I sat on the bed, coz he's good at computery stuff, and we were trying to make this sound system work.

Well that didn't happen, so we decided to get in the bed, and yeah nothing exciting happened, sadly, because we got interrupted by like these people who are really recognisable (I think ones an actress and the other is a regular at work), and they were like oh awks because we were in bed and, they interrupted to say I was needed at work, which I was suddenly magically transported to. And I was making boxes for a bit, and then I was called over to do something else, which turned out Domino's had turned into a really expensive jewellery shop and we were all wearing black clothes. And me and Katie were manning like a beauty product launch, and I was looking at the nailvarnish, saying a purple sparkly one would be a perfect xmas gift  for my friend, and Katie was saying oh no they're no good, the purple one looks like this (she showed me her hands, it looked dull maroon and not purple) and then she said the alternative 'pearl blue' colour turned out like water.

But Belinda was in charge and we had to keep going up all these different floors in a scary lift and the toilets were right at the bottom and I kept having to escort customers it was REALLY scary.

Yeah so that's that.

Creepy dreammmm

Okay, so my family have been decorating this weekend. We also have rats in our garden. So the dream starts with these themes

I walked out of my bedroom to find mum cleaning the toilet (which is separate to our bathroom). She started complaining because there were rats in there, and they obviously weren't killing them well enough, as they would obviously be in the way and 'eew gross', I was set with the task of killing them all. They were all baby ones, and for some reason, I had to pick them out of the toilet bowl. Where they weren't drowning.

I had to pick them up, and squeeze them. It was distressing because they were really cute.




I mean lookkkkk :(.

Anyway, so the bowl kept getting bigger and bigger and I ended up having to get in it to get all the rats out. Like the whole of me was in it. I picked up a rat and looked at it, It was soooooo cute, and then I dropped it and it was by my foot. Then I watched it open its mouth and stab me with really long white teeth in the heel of my left foot.

I like ran away after that and was limping about, and went into the living room, about to complain, when I suddenly morphed into Tommy Pickles. The rugrat, and his mum (Didi?) was all "come here Tommy" and it was so odd, I was watching kinda third person. Then they put me/Tommy on the sofa, and were talking to him/me. Then baby Tommy fainted, and then they were all like OH GOD NOOO.

And so off to hospital we went, then the mum imagined like the future for Tommy, or me, because she had to  make a decision - Tommy would be disabled in one way or another, but she could decide which. Then, it wasn't cartoon and I was the adult Tommy, rolling around in a coffee/smoothie shop that reoccurs in my dreams often, and yeah, like I was rolling on the floor, and there was something to do with a gun, and then Didi, after having the premonition, decided what she was going to do, but I never found out, because I woke up :P.

Sweet taste testtttt! - Viginias Doble

Okay guys so I did a taste test on some jelly beans once, and possibly on some wierd french sweets, but mi padres recently came back from Barcelona, and brought with them Virginias Doble

Okay so the packet reads (translated) :

VIRGINIAS
Double
7 flavours
intense, flavourful, juicy
FLAVOUR EXPLOSION IN YOUR MOUTH!

Aaaand then all the boring stuff.

As I said, the packet says 7 flavours, but I opened mine, got them all out, and could only find 6. Alas.

We have:

ciruela or plum
fresa or strawberry
limon verde or lime
mandarina or mandarin
naranja or orange
platano or banana.

That's in alphabetical order, but I've come up with my own awesome order to do the taste testing in (mainly because I hate banana so it can't go last, the best goes last lol)

I even brushed my teeth for this, okay?

So to get the ickyness out of the way, it's platano first.

Here in all it's yellowy glory. Odio los platanos :(

Right, it smells of like nothing, so we'll see. Okay in my mouth now. It tastes like a real banana, mixed with sugar. I dont really like banana. It's reminding me alot of when I was a kid with tonsilitis, and we had this flavour antibiotics. So its not that bad, I think I only had about 4 of them in the packet. They're quite nice though actually. I wish real bananas tasted like this.

Okay now mandarina, playing it safe but not going straight to orange.

my mouth still tastes a bit like banana hahah I'll get some water. I take these things seriously.

Right, back with some water, and now for mandarina.

Smells like nothing. OMG okay this is a wierd taste. It kind of tastes exactly like a mandarin, pith and all, but with that wierd artificial kinda flouridey taste you get on some sweets. Okay it's like the best kind of mandarin ever it's sour exactly how I like them. I'm not sure how many of these I have. Okay, so after the wierd start, I'm saying it's better than banana. Far more sour than I expected lol. It's like stinging haha.

These sweets are making my water taste bitter :(

Okay, cool. Now for fresa nommityyy.

Okay there's a vague strawberry smell, and the flavour will probably kill me now as I'm learning. Here goes. Okay, omg, wow, that actually pretty much tastes like a mixture of calpol and parma violets. Like literally. What am I eating!? It is nice though. Just so so soooo wierd. I quite like it actually the taste reminds me of something I can't quite put my finger on. Okay it's so flavourful I feel like my mouth is going to shrivel up.

Right, okay, after a significant lengthy break to drink some water, we're moving on. I'm finding this quite challenging, but alas, naranja.

Smells of nothing. Bad sign. Actually I think if it smelt strong the taste would kill me, so probably a good sign. Right, in it goes... ORANGE! and also... wax? Weird but oh well. A welcome friend after the killer strawberry. No, no, I like this one. It tastes like, um, those calypso lollies where you have to push the icelolly up a cardboard tube that basically breaks and you accidentally eat cardboard and everything gets all sticky and orange. They didn't lie though, this is a flavour explosion in your mouth.

I dont want to do this anymore. Just two more to go.

Limon Verde, or lime, though I thought lima was lime but who cares now.

I'm going to eat it. Okay so the actual sweets are WHITE. whaaaa. Oh okay, it tastes like lemon, but limey. More limey though. Like those old bugs bunny and sylvester sweets you could get. I quite like that one, I have about 900 though to get through. They are pretty refreshing though.

I hope you guys realise they're boiled sweets and each one takes me like 5 minutes to eat and get over, and I'm like dying and my mouth is burning. I should have done this after dinner... rofl :(

I think this lime one is legit giving me ear ache...

Okay awesome just one more, which is... ciruela. I thought that looks interesting, I'll save it to the end to see if it is like god in boiled sweet form or something. And it's purple, and purple rules.

I'm not sure if there's a smell or my mind is cracking. Okay it's in my mouth. Same waxy taste as the orange. A bit soapy. Interesting. I havent eaten a plum in years actually. Okay so it doesn't taste evil, still sour as hell though. eeekkk.

So, overall, I'd say that orange and lime are your safest bet. They really are a flavour explosion en tu boca though :/

Thanks for reaadinggg

Rachel <3 :p=":p" nbsp="nbsp" p="p" xx="xx">
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Condiment Confessions

I go great with burgers, and hot dogs, but im just not as popular as old ketchup,
 with his reddish hue and cheeky nature, i'm just there for decoration. 
Sat on the table next to honey and mustard, watching salad cream getting mixed with custard, 
stupid Marie's pregnant again, why can't she crave me on her mexican? 
I'm just generic, I ain't Heinz, and forget HP we all went down that line, 
but I just can't face the constant failure, when they come near me but reach for the yella. Mustard is even better than me, and I had a single on MTV. 
Not even my funky quirky label, makes me stand out on this table. 
I guess it's time to fix myself, I'm fruity sauce, and I need some help

Here is an amazing set of gifs... if this works.